July 2004

7-24-04, 1:50am

Okay.  I thought for a while about keeping the following quiet and not telling you all about it.  But I figure you probably should know, even if I don't want to dwell on it or inspire pity or anything like that.  And it's just easier to do it on here than in person I guess.   

Alright, here goes.  I've had a bit of "family drama" I guess you could call it, today (well, I guess yesterday, by now, but that really doesn't matter).  Today my dad called me and told me my grandmother had died.  It wasn't a surprise at all; she had been on oxygen, had been in and out of the hospital, and had been doing worse and worse for years after her first diagnosis with lung cancer.  She was in the hospital again, this time with the expectation that she wouldn't be leaving.  The bad part is that shortly before her hospitalization, she and my grandfather had disagreements about something (to this day I still don't know what).  To make a long story short, my aunt sided with my grandmother, and decided that the best course of action would be for my grandmother to move out and completely sever ties from the rest of us.  Well, needless to say, this put a rift in the family relations, and no one has been able to contact either my aunt or my grandmother for a long time.  Luckily I was able to visit my grandmother in the hospital for a short time about a month ago.  But now that she's gone, it seems only to have gotten worse, and, situations being what they are between my aunt and my father and grandfather, I won't even be able to attend her funeral.

I dunno why I felt the need suddenly to let you guys know about this.  I don't want anyone to be walking on eggshells or anything, that's for sure.  It was kinda nice just to escape tonight and not have to think about it. 

Yeah, it sucks, but I'm dealing with it.  We're already thinking about driving to Mississippi (where she's being buried) to have our own mini ceremony, just to have one. 

I guess you guys should know, in case I get all weird, just so you know that there's a reason and I'm not just going crazy.  It's still sorta numb now, so if I go all reclusive on you or start overcompensating, you know why.

Yeah... that's about it.

7-12-04, 12:50am

Wow, I Love the 90s was awesome.  I think that seeing Dominic Monaghan do the Hammer dance will definitely be the highlight of my week.

But on to the rant part of this rant... I know I haven't been updating lately, but I really don't see the point anymore.  Practically no one looks at this site anymore, and the whole S.O.D. thing has kind of gotten old now that no one's really done anything for it.  Bleh.  Hopefully this is another phase and I'll get motivated by the site again.  We'll see.  But for now, this is probably the last quasi-update for a while.

7-1-04, 9:00pm

Man, I am dead tired.  I really don't know where to start with this rant, really.  It's been such a long day that I can hardly remember it all.

Hm, let's start with this... transferring sucks.  Advising is ten times harder, credits disappear from your transcript because they don't correspond with any class here, and it's all just so much more confusing.  And then there's registration... I thought I was getting the crappy end of the bargain schedule-wise as a freshman.  Oh no.  It's worse as a transfer.  Blah.  And the schedule I had planned out at UH was soooo nice...

But before you think I'm pining after UH, let me just say this... I LOVE it here!  I can't really put in words why, but it's just that everything fits so much better here.  I've only been here a day and I can already feel the difference. 

And I have definitely walked at least a bajillion miles in the past 24 hours.  At least.  Last night I got here, parked in the Southside parking garage (where the lady on the phone told me to park, mind you) and went wandering around trying to find the Commons.  Without a map.  Yeah, that was fun at 9 at night.  I wandered through Corps housing, found myself at the library, turned around then trekked through a few greenhouses, and finally found my way there after about 20 minutes.  And it was HOT too.  Then today, they herded us all on the campus tour that I've been on at least 3 times now.  Whoo!  And of course, the power had to go out halfway through the day (which is weird, because it was actually sunny and not raining for once), which meant that everything that we needed to get done was down.  So I walked across campus a few times trying to see when everything would be back up, grabbing a bite to eat and waiting in between.  But by the time yell practice (frickin awesome) came around, I was very near dead.  But whatev.  It was still awesome. 

Oh!  And I finally found out my room assignment after bugging the Housing people for a while.  I'm all the way on Southside in Mosher.  I was a little disappointed at not getting Hobby or any of the other nice dorms I'd requested, but thinking about it, I don't think it'll be that bad.  It hasn't got the nicest rooms, if it's the same as the one I'm staying in now (Aston, which is right across the Commons from Mosher), but it's definitely bearable.  Especially if I can get some paint and a carpet or something.  And the Commons has about 15 pool tables, which is definitely a plus.

Anyway, I'm off to take a shower, then fall into bed.  Gotta get up at 6:30 tomorrow morning to get the first stab at registration.  Yay!